The Calm After The Storm

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
-Isaiah 41:10

Hi Internet, apparently in a blink of an eye, it has been more than 6 months since I last blogged. Quick update, I’m now blonde. Okay that doesn’t matter. Anyways, for this week, I’d just like to share with you a few of my favourite pictures in my album, you may have seen them before, but there’s a story behind all of them.

Look into the mirror, that’s your competition.

“Strive not to be a success, but rather to be of value.” – Albert Einstein

Coins always make sounds, but paper moneys are always silent. So, when your value increases, keep yourself silent and humble. Humility is a strength, and that alone is well said enough.

When people said “we never want to look like you,” Arnold Schwarzenegger replied “don’t worry, you’ll never.” Everybody is definitely unique, and you carve your own legacy. Everyone you will ever meet knows something you don’t. I once love the phrase “Stop assuming and get to know me”, but selfishly, I didn’t apply it for myself. And now that things has changed, it is really really eye-opening.

Don’t ruin a good today by thinking about a bad yesterday. Sounds easy right? This phrase has to be the hardest thing for me to accomplish. Well you see, I strongly believe that smiling is the best thing to do, as it can hide all the sadness inside of you..

Well, I’m 18, and that’s a very young age to be having anxiety. Stop being afraid of what could go wrong, and think of what could go right.. I learned this the hard way, but it’s all worth it~

Be quiet, but don’t be blind. Be quick to listen, but slow to speak.

Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different?

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I find happiness when others smile, maybe you will too. So here’s to the night that turned into mornings, and friends that turned into family. Cheers ! And that’s all I have for now.

Luvya~

Aesthetics In Triumph

“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”
-Deauteronomy 31:6

To bluntly kick things off for this blog, I am into fitness and physique, and what’s harder than pushing myself, is definitely the negative vibes flowing around me. It’s not hard to spend hours in the gym, but personally, it is hard to achieve the dream figure if you’re on your own, while others are trying to drag you down.

So many times I’ve pushed myself over my limits, but recently I’ve discovered that without dieting, or simple, putting healthy food into your stomach, well.. you’ll never achieve that ideal aesthetic figure you’ll dream off. Well the hardest thing in the fitness world to me, is definitely not carrying the heavyweights for hours, nor the running of miles and miles in extreme weathers, but the mastermind, twisting my plans around is definitely dieting.

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That’s me earlier this year, when I found myself back into the fitness world. Sometimes putting a bit of effort ignoring other people’s sound advice to contaminate you can be a good thing. And there’s never going to be a better feeling than seeing your body change drastically after putting yourself through hell for a period of time.

Dieting has never been harder when friends and family start criticising you on what you eat. Well it is my choice to sculpture my body to achieve my dream structure, but the negative vibes the others are holding are pulling me down gradually.

“Hey, these are trans-fats, you want those fats in your body?”
“Look at this attention seeker trying to be all healthy and fit.”
“Where’s the greeneries? Aren’t you trying on a diet?”

Little does anyone know, the tiniest sarcasm, or so-called “jokes” they make, actually pierces through my heart, as dieting is not a choice, it’s a necessity.

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That’s me, 89 weeks ago when I first saw my core being visible. I had the flabbiest chest and the flimsiest arms, but that kept me moving. I remember editing the picture so much just to see the contour, well, Hey, I was desperate~

ANYWAYS~

Here’s a short snapshot of my body transformation throughout this year.

My goal is to be down, but not out. Being able to fail, and not quit. To get knocked down seven times, but get up eight. Having passion over talent, and a heart that could sink a ship. To never let anybody, or anything get in my way. Never whine, never cry, and never give up. To lose, but always learn, and to be tested from time and time again. Thrown into darkness, with only the will to survive. Well when life gets hard, don’t ask me “why”. Stare at it in triumph and hang on to my strength, my passion, and my difference to overcome.

Sometimes beings relentless is alright. It means you’re demanding more of yourself than anyone else could ever demand of you, knowing that every time you stop, you’re capable to doing even more!

That’s my previous deadlift session where I pulled a 176 lbs.

Keep in mind, you always burn out physically, but you’ll never burn out mentally. You hit the limits, but it’s possible to break the barriers. Every rep, every training session, and every meal either contributes or contaminate your ability to reach your dream. Success is not and will never be earned overnight; you need to take massive actions to start making progress and change that will allow you to move forward and get you one step closer to acquiring the success you’ve visualised for years. Only YOU can decide what you want to make things happen. It’s not just about putting in the hours, it’s about what you are doing with the time in.

Few things in the world are actually more powerful than a positive push. A smile. A world of optimism and hope. A “you can do it” can actually make my day, in fact, everyone’s day so much better.

With all the hard work of gymming and powerlifting, especially dieting and controlling my intake, well, a little of binge treat for myself is a million times more satisfying. My tip: control your diet and basically, stuff yourself with healthy food and nutritions. You have one body, you can either choose to build it to its best, or destroy it and regret later on in life.

There’s my 200 lbs~

And to end this blog, no matter what you are going through, you’re not alone, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and it may seem hard to get to it but you can do it. Just keep working towards it and you’ll find the positive side of things. To all the dreamers out there, don’t ever stop or let the world’s negativity get to you. There are going to be a lot of people you have to plow through, but as long as you believe in yourself, and work hard that’s really all that matters. Surround yourself with love and the right people, anything is possible. Stop wasting time, and well.. Start now~ ^^

It all starts off with a simple desire to success and conquer~

Luvya~

Camp Of The Century

“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
-Isaiah 55:9

Sometimes you’re not given what you want because something better is planned for you instead. Before this year’s annual school camp, I literally hated nights away from home. I’ve talked to a couple of my closer friends about my uncontainable homesickness. But this camp is a game changer.. I cried countlessly at the thought of going to this camp, and now I’m tearing at how the camp ended in a blink of an eye.IMG_1840.jpg

Well Hey, it’s just another year, another camp. However, I’ve learned that repetition may not be the most glorious thing, in fact, it’s annoying, it’s inconvenient, it can interrupt great moments in life. But it will definitely make you better. You will simply become stronger. By staying on course and being consistent, you’ll end up creating yourself and eventually a master and muscle connection along with a peace of mind that not many people are familiar with. How does this little fitness type out linked with the camp, is how I have pushed past the barrier of my limits and giving something I hated yet another try. I’ve shown the world what I’m made of, and so could you definitely. Reaching your full potential doesn’t have to come from the hardest things and hitting rock bottom, and going beyond. It starts of with a mindset.

I went to this camp expecting to make friends, but I ended up with family.

You can never spell “challenge” without “change”. Camps took everything away from me but my dignity. And today I’ll love to write about my experienced in my final high school 4d 3n camp.

Kulim Eco Trail Retreat !!!

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Day 1:
We got to the campsite 50 minutes away from school. Done the necessary and stuffs, after that, we got into out dorms.

Raft building~

The day was intense, and as dusk came, my homesickness started to kick in. I become SILENT, like literally !! If I were to slip out of the hall, I’m sure not a teacher will notice, that’s how my emotions got over my head. We are torn between nostalgia for the familiar and an urge for the foreign and strange. As often as not, we are homesick most for the places we have never known. And little do I realise, that’s end of the first day.

Day 2:

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I got up at 05:00 and went for my morning jog a few rounds around the campsite. Then I woke up my bunk buddy for his morning prayer, and after that, I got really hyped and excited for the day !! I was leading the worship, and Dear God, I had a whale of a time !! I loved it, I enjoyed it, and words could really not describe the adrenaline rush I had. I mean, the worst feeling a man could get is his homesickness when he’s home. And worshipping just took the stress away.

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Time flies, and we went on with S.U.P, or “Stand Up Paddling”, if you felt as blur as me. I stayed out though.

Well we continued the day with the “X cape room”, and we broke though with 5 minutes the space. Apparently, my team got a penalty thanks to me.. Hey, blame me not for literally lifting the whole cupboard up just because there’s a sticker on it saying “lift”.. Good job Jon..

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Jumped a bit too high.. Okay why not.. x)

Day 3:
Today everyone had to wake at 05:00, well it wasn’t new to me considering the fact that I got up 2 hours earlier. I woke everyone up in the guys-dorm at 04:00, but to my surprise, there was more who didn’t sleep than those who slept -_- …

We had our morning hike, I hooked on 7kgs of leg wraps and started the trek. The sunrise was one of a kind, and by the time we’re done with the walk, it’s 09:00. We had our breakfast and we continued with our schedule for the rest of the day.

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Well at 14:00, it’s finally time for the “leap of faith”. Everyone tried, but only a few accomplished it. I felt so pressurised as a calisthenic athlete. Not because I was scared to fail, but because I know that if I fail, it’ll be a pull-down for all who had hope in me, and that will make everyone lose faith in body aesthetics. Did it though, recorded the footage too.

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No matter what you do, do it with happiness. That’s a mind-blowing, yet simplest fact that came to mind. #Epiphany

Day 4:
Aww, it’s the last day… Again, I got up at 05:00 to wake my bunk buddy for his morning prayer. It was freezing cold today, so I put on my hoodie, and got ready for the day. Too much pictures though~

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That’s classic me, needing to pose in every scene~

“It’s impossible to make your eyes sprinkle if you aren’t feeling twinkly yourself.” -Roald Dahl

At the end of the camp, I have nothing left to prove, but everything to improve. To me, everyday is a new opportunity. You can either build on yesterday’s success or put its failure away and start everything again. That’s the way life is, with a new game everyday. I mean, if you figured everything out today, then what’s the point of tomorrow? Well I urge you right now.. Enjoy the process of being in the work of process.

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My main man- Mr. Gaston Tan, former manager of Kulim Eco Trail Retreat.

And Yeah, that’s the end of my camp in high school.. A lot to digest in 4 days.. Learned a lot as well..

-No one can survive without cup noodles~
-Everyone had faith to try the “leap of faith”~
-Not everyone wakes up as early as 05:00 and then go for a jog~
-Definitely teenagers aren’t that easy to wake in the morning…

I left the camp, but the experiences I’ve gained in the camp will never ever leave me. Every physical scar in the camp has left a mark on my heart, and every action that my friends had done to help me will also change my way of treating them in the future.

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For a different perspective on this camp, visit my game master and the one that kick started my blogging journey’s blog page:

https://jiayinggggg.blogspot.my

As a whole, the camp was very inspiring. Friend bonds became stronger, and of course, being punished in a group allowed us to know who’ll stick with you and who’ll scram because of those moments.

Luvya~

Creating Your Legacy

“Don’t hide your light! Let it shine for all; Let your good deeds glow for all to see, so that they will praise your heavenly father.”
-Matthew 5:15-16

I’ve once read that success isn’t about accomplishing something, nor is it about being better than others. It’s about what you inspire others to do. When you learn to expect nothing, but appreciating everything, that’s when happiness kicks in, and you will be leaving a trail everywhere you go. That’s what making a legacy is all about.

“Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones. A legacy is etched into the minds of others and the stories they tell about you.”
-Shannon La Alder

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Sorry to break your bubble, but we all eventually die. Well the goal isn’t to live forever, but to create something that will. Build something that outlives you. Legends walk amongst us, however, they are not born, they are build and forged in hot iron. Again, many people do not live, they only exist.

My goal is sure to create a legacy, but my passion is definitely showing you how to create one yourself.

Actually, the villains have a vision for the world. Heroes don’t, their only goal is to stop the villains from reaching their goals. Be not the villains that destroys the world, but the villain that ignores the people who are to do to drag you down, and aim for your target.

Once again, Tetris has taught me that if you ever try to fit in, you’ll disappear. With that said, never be worried about the people that speaks behind your back, they are behind you for a reason. Keep striving towards your goals and never let anyone stop you from achieving your dreams.

Rules are made to be broken. You do not create your legacy by winning. Your struggles develop your strength. When you go through hardships and decides not to surrender, that’s your legacy being written. Legacy is not leaving something for people, it’s leaving something in people.

“If you talk to a man in a language he understands, that goes to his head. If you talk to him in his language, that goes to his heart.”
-Nelson Mandela

Never let the behaviour of others destroy your inner peace and your attitude towards them. Also, always be kind as you’ll never know what someone else is going through. People will forget what you said. They may even forget what you did for them. But people will never ever forget how you made them feel.

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^Le Mont Saint Michel ❤

Anyways, I’ll just like to end this blog by proclaiming that you legacy is your message to the world. Hey, make sure it’s inspiring !!

“There’s only one thing in the world worse than being talked about, and that’s not being talked about.”
-Oscar Wilde

Well to think back 114 ago, I confessed to her, and through all these days, it has been so hard. I mean long distanced relationships are never meant to be easy, especially the fact that we’ve never met. We eventually shared many secrets, and stressed. The more the days gone by, the more I realised that you mean the world to me. I died every time you remind me that the moon I’m looking at is also the moon you’re looking at, just 6 hours later ^^

She’s still in St Malo, and we can finally Skype again real soon ^^ She knows I’ll have the worst homesick in the upcoming camp.. And the stars that I’ll be staring at near dusk will be the ones that she is looking at with me. My lifestyle has completely changed upon meeting you. I’m living everyday, knowing that it’s a day closer to the day I can hold you in my arms~

Tu me manques ma cherie ^^ I really can’t wait until the day we can finally meet. Ahh, and please tell Léa I said Hi~ x) 😛

Luvya~

Beautiful Tragedies

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and no for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
-Jeremiah 29:11

Perhaps it’s good to have a beautiful mind, but a better gift to discover is a beautiful heart. Nothing compares to a beautiful conversation with a beautiful mind, but nothing comes close to someone who has a heart at peace.

What’s better after 3 a.m. The heavier the eyelids, the sincerer the words, and silence is not awkward, it’s tranquil. Sometimes the heart knows things that the mind could never explain, and sometimes the mind accepts things that the heart can never.

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It’s easy to strip off your clothes and have sex with someone, but what’s equally insane, is stripping off the curtains hiding your soul to someone special.. Well, that’s really being naked, free from stress and lies.

“To me, beauty is about being comfortable in your own skin. It’s about knowing and accepting who you are.”
-Ellen Degeneres

 

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#cousins #bub

I constantly feel like I’m at war with myself.. My mind, my thoughts.. One thing I’ve learn in my life, it’s to fight, fight for what’s right, what I believe in, and what is important to me. Of course, most importantly, fight for those who you love. And with that said, fight for everyone. Never forget to compliment and tell someone how much they mean to you, that’s when you learn to outlook upon their flaws.

It’s funny how sometimes all we need is a line from a song or a quote from a book or movie to realise how we really feel and all we needed was a smile from a friendly stranger, a good cup of tea, a walk in the rain or even just an old song to briefly put us back together before we fall apart all over again.

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Before touching on the main point, I find it necessary to introduce my blogging mate. Well she kicked started me into blogging, so I think it’s only relevant for me to continue if I mention her blog.

https://jiayinggggg.blogspot.my  Et voila !! 
Give it a read~ It encouraged me to blog and maybe you’ll start too 🙂
Well, of course do keep track to her blogs if you find it interesting ❤

Briefly, since blogging has changed my life drastically, she has a major role in it. She joined our school this year, and she’s also the only friend I know who is as whole-hearted into her blogs as I do. Well this clearly shows I don’t have much friends.. Ahh ça ira~

Just, if you’re reading this, thanks for being so loving with my sis. That’s something I can’t express to them..

 Anyways

Today on the 15th of July 2016, I woke up to yet another terrorist attack. It was the 14th in France, as they were celebrating their National Day, well.. Their liberty was cruelly snatched away when more than 80 innocent blood was shed.. Behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something tragic. Of course these events are still tragic. They still hurt like all hell and there is still seemingly no reason or purpose behind them. It still seems unfair and unjust how bad things happen to good people. Life goes on, and that is not an excuse for you to stop smiling.

IMG_1545.jpgHave you ever had one of those moments when something devastating happens in your world and it feels like the rug has been ripped out from under you? Me too.. I lost my father in 2012, right before my major exams, but I’ve learn to discipline myself a lot. I’ve learned to put on a fatherly figure to younger ones before it isn’t pleasurable when someone you once loved so much suddenly vanished from your life. Throughout this time, I have also heard and learned about others who have experienced tragedy, and despite this, can see so much beauty in the lessons and life events that follows.

No smile compares to the ones that are genuine, especially when you were hurt and ripped apart. A rainbow will always appear right after the rain, keep your heads up, and keep an eye out for it.

It’s the 16th July~ !! Happy Birthday bub !! ❤ Doubt she’ll be reading it though.. Oh well~

Skype-ing has never been more awkward when Léa’s right beside. I looked at her and vice versa and trust me, I was so shy x) We had a short one though, my body clock is trolling with me again, making me tired when it’s around 01 hr ><

Her little cousin from Paris dropped by today, and she is ADORABLE~ Lil’ Chloé’s reaction when she found out that she’ll have a little sibling was just priceless ❤

Hey boo, I know what happened in Nice on National Day was scary, and I can’t do anything right now, but I have faith you’ll know what to do.. I feel so bad that I can only trust in you to recover yourself, but I really believe that you will, and will always do perfectly even without me ❤

Luvya~

 

Recharging Your Batteries

“Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while then vanishes.”
-James 4:14

Sometimes a break from your routine is the very thing you need. Enjoy the little things in life, the intriguing details that made up our existence. Taking time to do nothing often brings everything into perspective.

Be very quick to listen, but slow to speak. Sometimes, not
everyone wants to know how you feel and the way you think, but be the one where everyone would love you share their problems with you, that’s when you really know that you’re maturing. But in the midst of your attention spent, show respect even to people who don’t deserve it; Not as a reflection of their character, but a reflection of yours.

You have permissions to rest. You are not responsible for fixing everything that is broken. You do not have to try to make everyone feel special or happy. For now, take YOUR time off. It’s your turn to smile. Like an elastic band, it has to stretch as much as it could ever endure to be shot to a greater distance, that’s how we work too. When you think or giving up, remember why you started. Only through taking a step back, you could see the true vision.

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Well, an repairman’s favourite phrase is always “Did you turn it off and on again?” Apparently, almost everything will work again if you unplug it for a few minutes.. Including yourself.

When what used to bring you joy is starting to turn into a hindrance, it is time to take a break. Well taking a break from life doesn’t mean you stop everything you’re doing and start staring at the ceiling, it means taking a step slower to start seeing everything in its rightful nature. Observing how things may fall into it’s place all so beautifully without a gust of stress or worries.

I started reading a book titled “Killing Lions” by John and Sam Eldredge, a guide through the trails young men faces, and it hit me HARD. It prompted to me that I’m not alone, and whatever I’m going through, someone else is on the same boat. When some things go wrong, take a moment to be thankful for the many more things that are still going right. That’s what I’ve taught myself to do, and I’m really happy to be the unsung hero. To be a leader, you have to first learn to serve like a servant.

“If I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I have nothing.”
-1 Corinthians 13:2

Have you ever just wanted to take a break from life and come back when you’re ready?

“Just Do It”
-Shia Laboeuf

She’s back from Balearic Islands~ !! On another news, this blog got to a thousand views in 4 months ❤

Léa’s here to visit too ^^

Apparently, my school camp will be on the day you’ll go to Nîmes, and I couldn’t speak to you as much as we first did 120 days ago on your train back to Beauvais >< We’ll make everything up boo ❤

Tu me manques beaucoup ma cherie~ ^^ We’ll skype so much more tomorrow ❤

Luvya~

 

Striving For Perfection

“Above all things, walk in love, which is the bond of perfection.”
-Colossians 3:14

Our deepest fear isn’t that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is the fact that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

Happiness is like a butterfly. Pursue it and you’ll never catch it. Sit down and it lands on your shoulders. If you are someone who works towards your desired “happiness”, slow down, perhaps take a deep breathe. Just when you’re about to give up, remember why you started. A champion is someone who fails more than you and I, but they simply got up on their feet and start from the top. Truth is, it ain’t about how hard you hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit, stand up and move forward.

Waiting is a sign of true love and patience. Anyone can say I love you, but not everyone can wait and prove it’s true. Similar to striving for perfection, not everything comes your way, it starts with a desire.

You don’t have to wait for people to tell you that they’re walking away. People don’t always communicate through words. That’s why I really appreciate the value and the application of silence.

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Actions speak louder than words, remember? If they’ve gone through actions, then let them go. What good do words do when the action has already been done? Always interpret the words of others, as if you spoke them. This is how you truly begin to understand someone. You’ll end up really disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them. Not everyone has the same heart as you. But never change, because Hey, if not you, who?

Sometimes, two broken hearts find each other and then they heal each other, they protect each other and they love each other for the rest of their lives. I’d always tell my girlfriend that, well, I might not always be the one who can make her smile all time, but no one can ever replace our memories and no one will ever love her as much as I do. Hey, be that person, aim for perfection.

The storm will always end, outlast it.


If I am blessed 99 times in my life, I’m willing to give you 97 of them. Well, 2 blessings are for myself. Those are for meeting you, and for being able to love you forever.

When I close my eyes, all I see is YOU~ ❤ And that’s amazing.. ❤

3 days ago, it was our 100th day being “together”.. However, you were in Spain, and I was on my holidays too, but that changed nothing ^^ I still couldn’t imagine one day without talking to you.. You make my everyday complete baby, just like how you made me feel.. Perfect ❤ Well stay who you are love, you’re perfect just the way you are.

Luvya~

A Trip Down Memory Lane

“May the Lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other.”
-Genesis 31:49

Ask me how do I describe memories, and I’ll answer with nothing. See, a lot of people are lonely, they are so lonely although they are surrounded by others. And sometimes starring at the starry sky makes me think.. It makes me think way more than I should.

Yes, believe it or not, I have a family too !! #wow.. Anyways, in the midst of my regular cousins, there’s a few who aren’t necessary related to me, but gosh how much do I see them as my own siblings. Well we grew up together, if that made sense. And I thought to myself, why would I keep them in the lonely corner in my mind if I could just show them off to whoever that reads this blog~

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First things first, wait, hey !! #IggyAzeala. Wait no that’s not the point.. Anyways, you guys still cross my mind every now and them and it always make me smile. It feels like it was heaven sent, and things literally falls into its place all so naturally. Well I promised to write my mind on this blog, and not gonna lie.. I miss you all.

Sometimes a short trip down memory lane is all it takes to make you appreciate who you are today. I mean, admit it, no one looks back on their life and remember the night they had plenty sleep. Some of your best memories come from the most foolish decisions you’ve made.

“We don’t remember days, we remember moments.” -Cesare Pavese
Well the best thing about a picture is that it never changes even when the people in it do. Cousins are usually your first friends we have as children. They could understand you more than your regular friends even if you seldom talked.

So~ Here are 3 or 4 of my long lost “cousins” where I finally found them again on Christmas 2014~

If “he’s alright” is the word girls use to describe guys they find attractive, mate you’ll be the most alrightest guy existing. If I make sense.. I doubt..

He got me into photography, that’s legit my first impression after meeting him after YEARS. And geez he was so much buffer than his pics I held to within this few years. I remember that one time I visited your house and you said “come in (to your room), we’re killing someone.” Excited I am, I realised it was just a video game >< Well yea, that disappointment though.

Touching on what he’s accomplished now, well long story short, best photographer, best calisthenics athlete, basically someone I look up to the most.

Insta: @_hafidzz


Great.. A model, an actress, and a girlfriend to a professional footballer.. It’s kinda well said by itself…

I remember so clearly her house back when I last visited it ^^ Literally, she was my tour guide.. Or should I say.. House guide ! *ba dum tss* ha.. ha.. Owh shite.. another fail why.. Anyways, Yop, that’s her as the model of Samsung A series in Malaysia. Well I asked tonnes of my friends how she looked, literally, there were only compliments, yet no one knew that I know her, and no one trusted me that I do ^^

Also, the countless hours we spent in your play room in your house, aaawh man dem nostalgic memories ^^ Well, hey, just stay cool~ Like you always do 🙂 

Insta: @kharina97

That hair though~ And Yop, doubt no longer, she was shot. I think thrice~ NAAHH, just kidding, but well she’s a bloody talented sfx makeup artist.. I’ll not be surprise if someday, someone would just go up to her and say “HEY, SCRIBBLE ON MY FACE !!”

We were so close for so long, I forgot which one of us were the bad influence lel~ Does it matter? Hey we’ll meet real soon right? We said that since a month ago xD The only things I remembered were those quarrels and silence wars we always “play” ~^^ Well I missed it >< A lot 🙂

I know you’ll be reading this Kharisa xP , yes please tell Khyra I missed her too ^^ ~ The last time I met her was when she was around 2 xD Hey, tell me when you visit Johor next time x)

Insta: @kharisa

Well there ^^ I just got to include them in my blogs ❤ They made me.. Me 🙂

And my favourite part ❤

Well, 3 more people knows about us now ❤ ^^

Yop, I’m finally done~ Alors, bisou?

I can’t use English, ils sauront~ mais, pas d’erreur.. s’il te plaît~ Je vais mourir x) Je t’aime beaucoup ^^ et aarhh tu me manques >< trop.. Je peux pas attendre pour te parler plus tard ^^ je veux un bisou ❤ Onze jours au jour cent 😀

Yop boo, that one paragraph took me like 30 minutes ❤ Well to end this long blog, I really miss all of you ❤ Like, really really much !! I can’t imagine my life now, if one of you weren’t there in the first place 🙂 Just.. Thankiew ❤

Day 89~

Luvya~

Anger Management

“In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry.”
-Ephesians 4:26

Anger is present in all of our lives. We have all ‘lost it’ with family, friends or work colleagues at some time. I certainly have. But for most of us anger is both good and bad – it is a signal to resolve any di culties surrounding it, and it can also motivate us. We can all remember the time when an argument cleared the air or when we took positive action because of anger. Well, in other words, if there’s anger is you, the only way for it to come out, is literally.. To come out of you.

Unfortunately this is not true for everyone. For a signi cant minority of us, anger spills over into our lives too often. Remind yourself that getting angry is not going to fix anything, that it won’t make you feel better. In fact, it may actually make you feel worse.. Much much worse.

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Apparently, a single hurtful sentence that escapes your mouth when you’re mad can turn into a dreadful disease that rip relationships apart. Some things or people are just worth so much to lose, so why not think before you act? Trust me, it’s not as hard as you think. People only understand you from their level of maturity, so let go !! Sometimes, letting go doesn’t make you the loser, it makes you the winner.

Make your anger so expensive that no one can afford it and make you happiness so cheap that people can almost get it for free.

“Speak when you’re angry and you’ll make the best speech you’ll ever regret.” -Ambrose Brierce

Anger is nothing more than an outward expression of hurt, fear, and frustration. He who angers you, conquers you. Sorry, but even the nicest people has their limits. I mean, why would you madden a person whose intention was just to care for you?

“An eye for an eye will make the whole world blind.” -Mahatma Ghandi

Well, give yourself permission to feel anger, pain, resistance. Then relax, then let everything go with love. At least that’s what I’m learning to do~

Anger is never without a reason, but seldom with a good one. You should have control over your anger, not the other way around.

Hey bub, you’re stronger than that~

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Well drawing works too ❤ Why not..

MY PARCEL ARRIVED !!!!!!!

Hmm~ Just some “open-when” letters, and pictures, and a sweater that is never a good idea to wear in Malaysia. Ahh also the weirdest candy ever produced in Asia that somehow got to the #1 best seller in Japan and Malaysia~ Well also a keychain that doesn’t only hook on her bag, but also locks our relationship together.. Too cheesy? Naah, she’s perfect ❤

It’s our 100th day of non-stop talking, and 86th day of being together ^^. That’s just mind blowing !! 😀 It’s day 86 over too-many-days-to-count ❤ Well, pertaining to the topic, one thing that could make my worst day better, is HER~ And who knows? That may work for you too? A girlfriend isn’t a “girlfriend” if she only stay with you for a season, and if she’s willing to be by your side when things get tough, HEY, keep her ❤

Day 86 baby ❤ 14 more days and it’ll be a milestone ^^

Luvya~

 

 

My Eiffel Tower

“It is more blessed to give than to receive.”
-Acts 20:35

It was a few weeks ago when I saw a challenge. I’m not sure about the details, but the question hit me like a bullet train- quick and hard, yet leaving me thinking for ages. It goes something like:

“What will you do if the Eiffel Tower was yours for a night?”

Although I’m not a fan of joining that online challenge thingy, I asked many people for their opinions. My friends, my headteacher, my relatives, and even my girlfriend~ Thankfully, everyone replied in their own pleasurable way.

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The Eiffel Tower, or la tour Eiffel~

Hands down my favourite wonder of the world. I mean, it is just so delightful for the structure to be in the centre of a bustling city. The perfect construction to symbolise love, in a place none other than the city of love herself.

I personally have never been there, but I really want to~

Like the Eiffel Tower, some of us were just born to stand out

After a long time just sitting in the darkness filled with silence.. Thinking.. I’ve came to a point where I was frustrated because I really don’t know what I’d do if the Eiffel Tower belonged to me, even just one lonely night. Friends’ and relatives’ ideas are all debatably notable, but I felt like it’s missing something.

Once again, I LOVE the Eiffel Tower. Like if i could be at any point on Earth right now, I’ll definitely pick Paris. And then I snapped into my senses.. Yep.. Believe it or not, I do have senses..

Previously, I was always that guy who demands for what I wanted, and I’ve never really thought of others. And as time goes by, I realised my mistake and selfishness, but I wasn’t really matured enough until my headteacher gave me a point.

I researched even further, and eventually found a quote:

“The deepest pain I ever felt was denying my own feelings to make everyone else comfortable.” – Nicole Lyons

I’ve made up my mind instantly !! I loved the beauty of this erection in France as long as I remembered. And what’s more than keeping what I admire, is to share it ❤

When you are blessed, don’t raise your standards of living, but your standards of giving.

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What can we do? Well, maybe explore the panoramic view of Paris from the 2nd floor of the Eiffel Tower..?

After sunset, the Eiffel tower sparkles and bathes in golden light to welcome its night time visitors and offers a breathtaking view of the Paris lights. Also, one can appreciate a more calm atmosphere as well as the incredible illuminations.

Maybe a champagne session at the top..?

Well, don’t ever underestimate the impact that you may have on someone else’s life. Yes we’ve failed many times, but apparently, we only fail when we stop trying !! It’s normal for everyone to give up, but a champion simply rise and try again.

Weirdly, when I was typing out this blog, tears started rolling over my cheeks.. When a guy cries at a thought of losing something, he truly loves it.

I just can’t wait until that day when it’s my turn to smile, my turn to meet my partner, 6692 miles away, in France. Time doesn’t always heal, sometimes it only hides the scars.

Love comes to those who still hope after disappointment, who still believe after betrayal, and who still love after they been hurt. I mean, why would you hurt someone whose only intention was to love you? I know forever sounds like a long time, but I wouldn’t mind spending it with you ❤

Last but definitely not least, her point of view is really meaningful to me. Having to own the Eiffel Tower for one night, she’ll bring all her loved ones just to view the beauty of the city for one night. Spending it with her family and her boyfriend is apparently her choice~ And if she’s only allowed to bring one person~ Well, it’s for us to know, and for you to find out ❤

Hey love, je t’aime beaucoup ^^ I really can’t wait until that day arrives, when we can finally meet right under the Eiffel Tower ❤ #nobodyknows

Distance means nothing ?! Funny, because distance means I can’t talk to her whenever I want. Distance means I can’t see her smile that I LOVE so much, everyday. Distance means I can’t hold her in my arms, when I need her the most. Distance means not knowing how her hands feel on mine. Distance means poor internet connection preventing us from talking during the only time we are free. Distance means that I’m left thinking about how much I miss her, without being able to do a single thing about it, Distance DOESN’T mean nothing. Distance means everything. But despite it all, I wouldn’t choose to be with anyone else. Because you have to be willing to go through everything for the one you love the most. So yeah, distance may not be nothing, but it sure has got nothing on us.

Day 79~ We’ve been talking for 93 days straight, it’s surprising that we haven’t run out of topics. Skype-ing most nights has definitely made my day brighter.

Luvya~